Pity

It has ultimately and firmly been established that regardless of what community you are a part of or what ideology you subscribe to, there is no way to feel belonged to that certain aggregate or group of special interest. 

I think it's a supplementary lesson that no special interest group or movement towards perseverance of any sort will cater to you, even if it happens to cater one or two of your unique or specific interests. 

That is just a mere fact of life -- even if it's just armchair philosophy or is it? I have no idea. 

It doesn't matter where you feel like you may belong; before you know it, you'll find yourself jumping from one deviated interest/fixation to another till it ends up completing a circle or perhaps the most tangent line you'll have ever come across. 

You'll have perished a million times over before you finally give in and go through your 700th epiphany that maybe you don't and probably are not going to relate with anyone anyway despite carrying similarities with them. 

That is just plain reality for some people, it doesn't help that the incessant call for positivity in relation does not do anything to help with the situation or scenario, I suppose.  

For some people, the idea of being relate with someone on something and talk endlessly about it is just a mere fantasy -- sure it may seem like a cliche to many, but that has indulged itself into fantasy territory. 

It sort of makes one (not the busybodies obviously) wonder where is fantasy going towards in our age.  

What conditions of mine are making me fantasize scenarios that are literally everyday interactions? How hostile is actually hostility and how is the lack of a welcoming presence in an interest group, community, or fandom so deterrent to this same interest of ours?

What is this persistent alienation that makes me feel more unwanted than I should feel? 

The answer is we'll probably NEVER KNOW and that's just that.