Zeitgeist;'

There are some things that are never meant to be said or uttered. 

I think this past year I've reflected on a multitude of things that I've come to terms with: primarily things I know well enough that I'll never talk about to another living person in my entire life. 

Some of these are lies I have made up about myself and some of these are traumas I never wish to explore -- I think this is where I'd like to say or rather enable myself and/or others that lying and running from these buried pasts is not a bad idea. 

Sure, we live in reality but humans aren't always choosing to live in the immediate reality we're exposed to, we build a lot of delusions, obsessions, fictions, and imaginary positions around ourselves and others. 

If I lie to the person next to me to be cordial, that is fine -- I don't have to tell the truth about myself to everyone. After all, I do not necessarily owe everyone the truth, I only owe it to myself and to those that need to know it. 

It is true that many things could be nicer but they are not, and that is all we can deal with. There's no point in beating around the bush about things that aren't nice and building false realities about how nice it is or could be -- this means that if I don't have a positive outlook about something or someone because of an event, it is literally meaningless to try to negotiate a neutrality. 

Another epiphany I had the fortune of actively replaying in my head this year would be the difference in similarities between my peers. 

I ACKNOWLEDGE how deeply I disdain the fact that I don't share similar views of pursuit -- that is how life is, your closest friend will probably not share your view on how to lead life. 

This very fact will make you actively dislike both yourself (for putting up with that difference) and them (for holding such a difference). 

My courage to disconnect myself from old friend(s) that bring me nothing but displeasure is also something I've prided myself in this year. I WILL NOT tolerate those who WOULDN'T HAVE tolerated me anyway. 

I think we must remind ourselves that the older generation that are intolerant towards us MUST taste their own medicine from the younger generation to UNDERSTAND what's wrong with them. 

Unfortunately, sometimes you must use your foes' language against them to make them understand what's wrong with them. 

I strongly wish I had more peers that I could relate with on everything but obviously, that in itself is a tedious and arduous search. To have everything in similarity, that would be dangerous but it sure feels nice to at least be able to grasp the same interests, I suppose. 

It is important to note that while all these thoughts arise from a place of contempt and deep reflection at the turn of a new year, they arise from places that are left unscathed and areas of our mind that we choose not to explore, touch, or reveal. 

This is in the fear of how the public or our peers might perceive us.

I adapt that mode of thought of pragmatist/optimism, as it attempts to employ the most utilitarian results for us all. However, we must also remind ourselves that utilitarian by its own virtue and means isn't necessarily always the most helpful employment, it too has it stretches and thin ices. I believe it's also equally, if not more important, to employ our lenses through more angles than just one and not keep ourselves under the cave about what we must accept and not accept -- I don't take reality as some form of acceptance or delusion to be fascinated by, for example. 

I take it as some form of canvas to rest on, it's not my job to be reality or embark in reality: reality is there doing its own business, whereas we are busy with our own. We must keep the truth in front of us that humanity isn't reality, humanity is humanity: whether that'd be being a samaritan, or a psychopath. 

Both facets are facts of humanity that we live through, observe, record, and teach. I think the default option that we have taken to seclude ourselves in for as long as possible is to restrain whatever qualms we've had and try to present ourselves as live creatures rather than divinity albeit debatable. I do take the position that it is rather healthy to promote humanism over metaphysical relief -- at least then you have more strive to preserve livelihood rather than fantasise in the afterlife.

There are billions of course, but obviously none of us will meet those billions. We'll perhaps know a fair few hundred thousand at best in our entire lives -- the rest will remain simple statistics to us, as you would find them on an average television news headline. 

I think it's not too presumptuous to say that it is within the best of us to take their experiences as their own and employ cognitive empathy behind those experiences -- of course, the human brain isn't a super logic board that knows when and where to employ what stance, it is an amalgamation of complex and delicate emotions swinging around a million miles or whatever unit you'd prefer a second (analogously of course).

I think it's rather easier to be more positive (and if we might add, pessimistic) about this than it is to be in any of the scenarios that is or not mentioned. We can all have experiences similarly or differently and derive positive or negative outcomes from it, even if you were to bring a look alike both in soul (for lack of a better word but not referring to the religious definition) and physique, there could still exist some distinguishment that would separate the two, whether that'd be due to contentment or misunderstanding. 

One can surely take this as some form of unique aspect of life, or you could interpret it to be more of a grim fact to live with -- acceptance in both but not necessarily a tangible premonition per se. 

Either way, I don't think that necessarily predicts or depicts humanity in any grandiose light however, I mean if you perhaps ask a astute cynic, they'd say none of the chosen steps makes much of a difference if you're not stable with your own being to begin with. But yes, if you ask someone like a consequentialist, they'd be more willing to imply what route is best for human livelihood. 

Personally, I find it too cliche to be a fable but also too optimistic to be a reality.