needing an fp sucks (rant kinda

i hate needing an fp to live like ill actually die without one thats not a joke. thank god my current fp is a good guy but ive obviously been through periods where it was someone who WASN'T good and those were some of the worst moments in my life like??having your entire emotional state rely on one person is so scary at this point i hope he never stops being my fp cause hes always there for me im scared of it being anyone else. there's been people who have wanted to be my fp and the feeling is almost never mutual because they always bring me emotional distress. like i dont WANT a new fp when i hardly trust anyone else with that much control over my life. speaking of. my fp is asleep. wake up boy!!!!