i kinda enjoyed school more than winter break tbh

so like i used to HATE school, like it was literally the bane of my existence. mostly because my old school’s rules and stuff were boring, but also super anxiety-inducing. like every day there was a morning ceremony where there was a schedule on who would give a speech, who would be the one to command the rest of the students into resting position, saluting position, that kinda stuff. it started from the 6th grade and would go down to the 1st (in my country 6th grade is still elementary),and when it was my turn to do any of those, i refused almost every time. until i reached 6th grade. my 6th grade teacher was stricter than others, and more stern which i didn’t like. so, i felt intimidated, like i couldn’t just refuse anymore. so i gave the speech. TWICE. we weren’t supposed to do it twice the same year. but for some reason “the schedule said so” which is stupid. apparently the whole thing is for “building confidence” but i only see “breaking confidence” because that stuff was NOT helping. also, the “but the schedule said so” thing was a lie. the school wanted me to give a speech TWICE just because they knew i was leaving to the US soon. which, i get if it’s a goodbye, but a SPEECH in front of the whole school? i hated that stuff SO MUCH.

fast forward, i’m in 6th grade, finally in the US, i was really surprised. no morning ceremonies and stuff, not many things made me that anxious. plus my school was lgbtqia+ friendly, so that made me happy as well. even in gym class i wasn’t that anxious. i didn’t have to do everything in front of everyone in the name of “building confidence”, and even in presentations i wasn’t so nervous. i know a lot of people say that “america’s school system sucks”, but for me, it’s way better than when i was in my old school. i was lucky to even go to a school in which you didn’t have to go through mud, rice fields, and busy streets like my parents did (although, most public schools in my country are still like that), but now, i’m really grateful for my time in school.

my parents are kinda transphobic, so i feel safer in my school. that’s why i liked it better than winter break.