i’m not afraid of dying - poem

I’m not afraid of dying,

I’m afraid of the being dead. 

I dont believe in ghosts

So theres no comfort to be found in haunting. 

I’m not afraid of dying,

I’m afraid of going before I feel complete. 

Theres so many things I havent done and people I havent been and people I haven’t met

I dont know if I’ll ever stop feeling incomplete, undercooked, unfinished. 

I’m not afraid of dying,

I’m afraid of being static. 

When I’m gone I am final

And theres nothing to be done about it. 

I’m not afraid of dying,

I’m afraid of being seen as a story. 

If I’m not there to own myself, other people will own me

So I have to trust I will leave behind good hands to hold me.

(all the poems i like the best seem to get the least love on here lol so i expect no one will care about this one)