stupid rant on why i love colors so much

i love colors. its pretty obvious even to people who just met me but like my love for colors goes beyond what should be considered normal. like. i was never really good with speaking even if i did like to hang out and talk with people so like starting from a young age i had to draw to like convey my feelings and stuff, and what helped me portray those feelings? colors. specifically the 24 crayon Crayola pack oh my god i loved that pack so much definitely my favorite pack of all time but ANYWAY. the richness of the blue to help me show i was sad and the vibrancy of the red to convey my passion for something, or even the nothingness of the yellow crayon helped me show my embarrassment when i accidentally peed my pants in front of my entire class. there was ALWAYS a color that could portray my emotion, red, blue, yellow, green, or whatever obscene shade that god threw at me, i always had an emotion to go with it, i NEVER had a feeling that couldn't be described with colors. i was non verbal most of the time, so drawing helped me IMMENSELY in school, social settings, etc.

colors don't just help me with describing my feelings, they help me feel alive. i hate boringness, i hate a lack of color, i NEED colors to function. without colors i doubt i would be the person i am today, because colors have impacted my life in so many ways i cant possibly begin to go through. colors help me navigate through my life(i have synesthesia) and they help me color-coordinate stuff simply because of the variety between every single shade. i even color-coordinate stuff that isn't even important, like the alphabet. letter a? oh yeah, definitely red.

without colors i would be unable to function as the person i am today, they bring so much joy into my life and have helped me express myself in ways i never thought i could. i would die if there was no colors, i would be miserable, unhappy, man i think i would be like an empty husk. i love colors so much. shoutout to colors forreal i love y'all fr!!!!!!

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