Happy new years+ Vent

Happy New Year, to all of you in spacehey hope you have the best New Year ever lol. This blog might be yapping and reflecting on the past year, especially about my ex. Trigger Warning for mentions of S@, please be nice:')

Regrading of which how do you guys deal with knowing that your ex might have a new lover? I don't know the answer but I've blocked them on everything and I try my hardest to not see what they are doing. I'm not sure why I feel so bad I was the one who broke up with them. For good reasons, he r@ped me. I'm not going into the details but when confronted he simply said that he felt like a monster enough and that I should just move on from that. Jeez that was a lot already, right? I don't know who to talk to and writing this gives me slight peace of mind that it's out there in public. Last year I attempted to break up with too, but it did not end well. He tried to khs and made it seem like it was going to be all my fault. I'm shaking writing this but hey it's out there...

Thanks for listening to me. I am in therapy btw im just scared of what might happen if i tell her these things. I still care for him?