winter/seasons (kinda a depressing rant)

this winter has felt the least wintery like ever. the only day i really felt the holiday spirit was when we bought a christmas tree and decorated the house for christmas, but like ever since i just havent really been feeling it. maybe on christmas when i had dinner with my family but thats abt it. its not even felt like winter in terms of weather, like where i live its been like 10 c for the past few weeks, no snow, nothing. and now its the last day of 2023, and it just feels so weird?? like idk. im nervous for the next few weeks, because itss gonna start becoming summer again, and that scares me. also school. god. school. fuck school. i hate school. like wdym i have to go to school and learn. also summer time. its gonna start being light late again, idk how to feel abt that. god. i have to live life again after  winter break :(. yk when people say seasonal depression hits in winter? sometimes i feel like i ave that for every season, like as in i never know how to deal with seasons changing and i hate it. or just time passing in general. idk what to answer when people ask what my fave season is, because i lowkey hate every season, like i can find downsides on every season. winter: easier to get sick, holiday stress, less sunlight whc can b kinda depressing. summer:  hot, bugs (specifically mosquitos (fuck those)), cant wear hoodies (easier to hide chest in hoodies), SWIMSUITS. (i love swimming sometimes but god having to wear swimsuits as someone who is trans and insecure can be difficult sometimes.) spring: i feel like spring is just mainly filled with school. not alot of days off school, and it just feels  like less intense summer in terms of weather idk. autumn: sometimes trees still have pretty leaves but others just look dead and thats kinda sad. and i cant really think of anything interesting happening in fall.  but i feel like winter time is easier to me, cuz i have sensory issues when it comes to being warm as in if im in class and hot i cant do anything anymore so i physically despise summer time in school. also i hate wearing tshirts in class so whenever its summer i wear a zip up hoodie over a tshirt, and thats horriblle cuz its hot  but also i refuse to take it off cuz like. idk.