Anxiety & Depression

I just made this collage video to "Habits" by Tov Lo. After editing and adding all the videos i wanted i showed my mom. She started crying because i guess she felt the emotion that i put into the video. The video took me like 2 hours to put together. Its just videos of me smoking, drinking, crying, partying. Its just goes so good together with the song. Ive cried making the video myself. Ive been suffering from anxiety and depression for about 7 years now. It comes and goes. Somedays i just dont wanna be hear then the next day ill be completely happy then maybe later on that day ill be sad for no reason. I just cant control it. Ive never went to therapy or anything like that cause idk i just dont want to talk about my feelings to a starnger. Not that i dont mind i just know ima break down crying when they start asking me questions. I rather talk to a stranger about my problems because they dont know me. I gotta start talking to someone soon cause ive been in this dark place for waaaay to long.