Know Your Worth

     Tonight, I wanted to talk about knowing your worth.  You see on my profile you will have a genuine friend.  You will have someone to encourage you and be there for you whenever you need them because I didn't have a friend on this Earth to do that for me when I was growing up.  I faced so much alone and how I'm alive is an outright miracle.  I have faced suicidal thoughts, thoughts here and there of SH, giving up, feeling down on myself, discouragement, unappreciation, worhtlessness, valuelessness, everything going wrong, everything being a mess, my own family bullying me, my peers ganging up on me.  No idea how i made it being completely alone and yet I did for so many to be disrespectful to that now?  Absolutely not.  I do not fucking think so.  

      I had to work on learning how to love myself even if no one else ever does, I had to learn how to appreciate myself if no one else will, I had to learn how to validate myself because if I cannot validate myself, then how can I expect anyone else to?  It all does start with you.  If someone makes you feel a certain type of way, it is time to block them.  If they show no care that you talked someone out of ending their life... that is not a friend and that person should be cut off they are handing you the scissors proudly. Forgive them and move on really.  

     The things I have faced in my life has taught me and revealed to me that I do not want to see someone else suffer in silence the way I did.  I want to reach out to as many as I can and say you are not alone.  You may feel that way, but you are not.  I have been there way too many times myself and I want to help you overcome what you are feeling and what you are thinking.  

     You have to reteach yourself, you are more than the bad things that happen to you.   There is nothing easy fighting mental illness, it will exhaust you, but the fight is worth it because when you come out on the other side, it will be worth the view.  I love you.  I care about you and if you have no one else in life... then you have me.  You are safe.  You do not have to take my word on that too many people who are unsafe probably said that, but overtime maybe I can show you that you are safe.