ah yes, new years

oh how i love people using pyrotechnics weeks before the actual new years, littering the ground and polluting the air. don't you just love climbing on a hill, looking down at the city and seeing smog covering the lights? i also love having to wear ear guards in my own neighbourhood because of the explosions of petards and fireworks while i avoid stupidly drunk people. yippe.

my plans for this new years are actually kind of nice, though. usually i would visit anna yo take care of her cats with her and play some DND with other people. but now that seb is moving out soon for his studies (physics, bleh!), we are gonna visit him instead. his family lives on the outskirts of the city so it's not gonna be that loud. we will make bonfire, drink and play card/board games, maybe listen to music. luckily seb likes metal too, lmao.

i don't have new year's resolutions, as it doesnt really motivate me to have a set date for my goals. the perfect time to be better is here and now, always. i don't wait for mondays, or new years. anyway, i still hope to get better at coding and to continue to educate myself and form my own opinions on things. i want to spend a lot of quality time with my beloved and clear up my career matters. tbh, at this point i've seen enough to be neither optimistic, nor fearful for the future. i am just kinda dead inside, lol, i want to survive and make the best of it. and be in love, still.