a vent bc I DDONT KNOW ANYMORE (tw)

IM SO FUCKING DONE

I HATE IT ALL

IM EMPTY, I HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE AND IDK WHY MY MOM CANT SEEE THAT

OH AND ALSO I LIED, I FUCKING LIEDABOUT HAVING MOTIVATION TO CLEAN MY GODAMN ROOM I INLY DDID IT BC MY MOM KEPT SCREAMING AT ME ABOYT IT AND KILLING ME WITH HER FUCKING WORDS. 

I ALSO LIED ABOUT BEING CLEAN SO IM SORRYFOR THAT BC I. SAIID I WAS 2 MONTHS CLEAN BT IM FUCKNG NOT IM ONLY 2 DAYS CLEAN AND AT THIS RATE ITS GOING TO BE 0

I USED TO JOKE ABOUT SEWERSLIDE BUT ATP ITS NOT A JOKE ANYMORE IM READY TO JUST FUCING GIVE UP.  I DO T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE. I DONT

AND HONESTLY I WISH IT WAS MY ,MOM THAT DIED INSTEAD O MY DAD, BECAUSE IF EVERRYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON THEN WHAT REASON. DID THEY HAVE TO TAKE MY DAD AWAY?! MY DAD WAS THE ONLY FUCKING ONE WHO UNDERSTOOD ME AND HES FUCKING DEAD. 

MY MOM LIKES TO TELL ME THAT IM A FUCKING FAILIURE, AND IM STARTNG TO FCKING BELEIVE HEER AGAIN SO GREAT!!!!! 

IM FFUCKING DONE IDK WHAT TO DO ANYMOREE

THIS IS PATHETIC IM FUCKING SOBBING ON THEE GROUND.

I DONT EVEN HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO BRUSH MY HAIR IN THE MORNINGS

I LIED ABOUT GETTNG BETTEER BECAUSE IM NOWHERE NEAR BETTER AND I HOPE TO GOD THAT NONE OF YOU END UP LIKEE ME BECAUSE ITS SAD AND I FUCKING HAATE IT IM GETNG WRSE EVERY. FUCKING DAY!

AND THIS ISNT A SEWER SLIDE NOT BUT HONEST;Y IT COULD BE ATP. IT COULD BE. I MIGHT NOT BE ONLINE FOR THE NEXT DAYS AND ITS NOT BCASE I KILLE MYSELF ITS BC IM SUFFERING AND TRYING TO GT BETTER BEFORE I DO

FUCK!