TW rant/vent

TW vent

even though I usually post cute core stuff, I have got to talk to someone about this. its prolly not super important, it is just kinda bothering me. 

so my parents have always told me (and sometimes my brother, but he's the youngest and gets good treatment) that I have to "earn my keep" and "work to live" in their home and that just some food, water, a few clothing articles a roof over my head, and being born is enough to do work for them and be indebted to them until they pass away! It really wears away at me, and I also have to do regular chores, take care of my brother, do classwork/schoolwork/homework/projects, learn how to drive without them taking me to practice, take care of my grandad (we moved in with him after my grandmother passed from cancer bc he cannot take care of himself due to him having Alzheimers which is the most severe and worst form of dementia bc not only do u forget things you also are always constantly mad and aching) keep myself from being outed, pretend to be their idealized version of myself, force myself to go to their church, and take care of not just my pets, but my grandad's and my parent's pets. I know that everyone has chores and I know that doing mine is good, but it is a very irregular amount, and then a lot of other work piled on top. Even though I was diagnosed with ASD (autism spectrum disorder) my parents don't believe it. I also suffer from P-TSD, anxiety disorder, and depression (chemical imbalance type) and things are rlly difficult for me to just live. I'm sure this doesn't mean I deserve special treatment, but I just really needed to talk. Heck, I had to clean my parent's room for them a few minutes ago, and I've been doing it since I woke up, and I had to persuade my mom to let me have a restroom break  (and that's when I posted the other blogs that have been wips for a lil bit) but yea life has been kinda tough rn