hi again :3

hii long time no see! its been a bit but thats cus ive just not rlly had a reason to use spacehey? like. im a very anxious guy who only talks on my personal for-friends discord server and my personal blog, i dont go on any social platforms at all so they all just.. slip my mind unless they get brought up LOL

im thinking of increasing my activity, i just need smth to motivate me ig? i need a Reason to come back here, whether thats specific ppl i like seeing or things i like talking/posting about on a place like this.. idk. i need a reason to be active in other places too.. id need to make a private list of reasons why to look back on every once in a while.. it feels silly to need that but i rely on lists for sooo many things, i just have very poor memory so lists help me remember why it even matters to me at all :p

anyway! today i cleaned my room, it feels very satisfying. i started just to clear some space for this new sonic adventure statue i got (this one), but then it turned into me just realizing how unhappy i am with how it looks now and just.. going crazy haha, which i very much needed to do. it was very cluttered before.. i just have motivation issues a lot of the time yk? but ive been very motivated lately.. whenever im in that mood i have to take advantage of that

oh, uhh idk when the last time i posted was.. i think a few months ago? so within that time to now.. the holidays have all been chill! standard and not very eventful for me but as i get older, i wanna do less crap LOL so i didnt mind at all XD new years is creeping up and im eager for it.. but also scared but also eager LOL ig im scared in a worldwide sense, like im scared of how things will continue to change for better or worse through thr whole world.. but for my own personal self? im eager to see where my own life goes :)

i think uhh thats it lol idk what else to write so! till next time!!