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ARGHHHH I FEEL WEIRD. I BEEN FEELING WEIRD FOR A WHILE BUT ITS BEEN like a slow build up or whatever. JUST SO WEIRD INSIDE!!!! very unstable i feel like 500 emotions at once and i don’t like it. and i’m dissociated like craaaazy but whateevr i always have dissociation. well not always anymore but like i can handle when i get lots of it bc i got so much in the past before. BUT I FEEL JUST RLLY WEIRD. i don’t like to use this word bc i don’t have bipolar but i don’t know the right word that fits… manic??? i’m not impulsive though and thats such a big part of it. i just MISS HUMAN INTERACTION. this weird crazy feeling always comes when im locked in my house all day and can only text people. i go CRAZY. i started laughing at everything for 0 reason out loud, that also happens in this state. it feels fun to giggle all the time but like , it feels Off. it feels Wrong. so i’d just prefer to feel normal rn please. And i feel bad bc i scared my friends a bit even though i know in a few hours this craziness will go away. IDK HOW TO WORD IT IM JUST HAVING A MOMENT. IT HAPPENS WHEN IM ISOLATED FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME FROM the outside world. ughhhhh im too codependent on my boyfriend and irl friends, i shouldn’t go crazy like this. aaaaaa
ill be fine and safe, i never get close to harming myself even on my hardest days so don’t worry about that or anything. im not even like SAD i mean i feel 27474 emotions at once rn so yeah i feel some depression. but idk tknow what i mean its not overbearing
im seeing irl friends on friday so i just gotta hold out till then , and maybe i can see one irl friend tomorrow just to make certain of it??? ill see what i can do
once i see irl friends i always go back to normal. i just am an extrovert i guess????
but i need to get my mind gone so maybe ill draw bc that makes my brain chill and zzzzen UGHHH I FEEL WEIRD I DONT LIKE THIS SILLY WRONG FEELING
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Lain Sarif
I know that feeling! Though I'm still not sure what exactly it is, sometimes I think it's understimmulation, like you're bored out of your mind so your brain starts going crazy. What helps me in those moments is doing something that makes me feel emotions, like writing, listening to music, playing a videogame, etc, and letting myself stim as much as I need to cause those times I'm also extremely sensitive to everything. Idk if you're neurodivergent or not, but everyone gets under/overstimmed at times.
I hope this helps! And if you need someone to talk to you can send me a message too <3 please take care.
i’m heeeelllaa neurodivergent i seriously gotta get my autism diagnosis lol
THIS MADE ME feel a lot better, so thank you very much :) i feel less alone and weird knowing others experience this tysm tysm <3
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Yay! Glad it made you feel better. I hope you can feel less weird and uncomfy in your own skin. It's A Problem tm for real
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ICARUS, THE DEITY
Been ripping out small portions of my hair (the ends) all day too and while i do that subconsciously a lot of the time im doing it consciously today and i really dont know why