The way you disappeared made me more even violence in myself

I always felt his presence before he left without a word:(

I don't think if I could trust people on the internet anymore. I met him online in August, and we talked in chat. He was there for me when I needed someone to talk about my feelings, and he always said words to keep my mind calm. We became friends from that. A month ago, he became colder, and he gave me some late replies. Sometimes, he didn’t even read my messages. On December 22, he deleted his account without any words from me:'(, like he didn't say goodbye or anything. A day passed, and I couldn't feel his presence anymore. Or is this friendship over?? Am I bad enough for him to be my friend?

Sometimes I always think of killing myself because of what, but thanks to my friends in real life, they were there for me to talk about what happened and my internet friend. I hope he still remembers me and I hope he's fine.. I still miss you my friend.. :(