my old hobbys stick to me like gum on my favorite shoes

ermmmmmmm my grandma got me an art kit for Christmas yk like that pencil and paper and paint. I mean im very grateful but like damn that felt like well idk not like a slap in the face but more like feeling like you gotta take a bad shit. anyways again I don't hate it its just idk there. I really do wanna get back into art idk covid really affected me BAD yk. like I look through my old sketch book and like damn. idk next year ill be into it TRUST!!! maybe, idk depends.