Blog Entry 27/12/23

 Good days to you, I hope I find you in a good mood... Or at least in a good, way of thought. 

 I know that these things have disappeared, but I honestly felt like these wouldn't matter until I've realized, they do, in fact, don't work for nothing, and that's fine, I need that currently, I don't want more progress. 

 To make things simple, I'll explain some things going on on my life currently, in no specific order of course, but, worth telling at least, to a confesor like me or now you, my reader: 

•  From the last week I've slept only 9 hours, I can't with my dreams, and I cannot possibly fix this again with magic, because my spells don't work anymore. 
  
  
•  My case was picked up, my family, that treacherous part that decided who I was before me being something, have finally tried to make contact to tell me how much I have to pay for them to not press further with the slim shiver of "Evidence" They have, 1.5 Millions, It wouldn't be much, I would win if it goes to tribunals or courts or even a face to face, but, sadly, I have to recognize, for these type of encounters, being a man doesn't work, and worst if the other side is a woman, and let's stop talking if that woman is a mother too.
  
  
•  I got somewhat worried, my best friend, Alisa, My blood of my blood, now is something more than my Best friend, now we are, Friendly, but, sadly, I've realized alongside her, that she has Brain Cancer, that explains a lot, but, I will push on, I will keep my word, and I will make sure to be there for her, because, lastly, she is still here for me. 
  
  
•  I still can't cry. 
  
  
•  I've started going to a Therapist, she is named Silvina and is really cool, she treats me as an old man, "Like these candies "Media Hora"!" "Oh! Those candies were horrible, with that taste... I think your generation doesn't even had one, how do you?..." "Yeah, wrong question Silvina" - Extracted from our last meeting. She is helping me, a lot, with a lot of problems, that I know I have, and I am thankful for her. 
  
  
•  I've met some new people, all of them lacklusters, and I became closer to Ayala, he is, as you now, my confident. 
  
  

  But well, today. 

 Today was wrong, I woke up 50 minutes after finally sleeping, and I couldn't connect eye to eye since then, Right now it's 4:07 too, so I don't think today will be any different. Anyhow, anyways, I've just did nothing, got invited by Luca to go out, said no, I don't want to go out right now, he has learned with time that my no is terminant and my decision final. He is now on College for history, he is doing what he likes so for him I'm thankful.

 I've got no Christmas presents, I bought my own, 3 books and a 4:3 monitor that I really wanted. And ties, because I might be a dysthimiac son of a bitch but I am going to be one with a sense of fashion. Right? 

 Besides that, today I lifted some screens, for my living, so my sister can continue cheating on her boyfriend with this "americano" guy, I don't like him, I said hello, and that's a greeting, as my grandmother told me always, "Greeting is not love, but good manners" and I am many thing but I am not a liar nor impolite. "You won't shake my hand?" "No" "Ah, I knew it, you are grossed out with me" "Yeah, I am." I am not going to lie to that man. But I won't accept him into my circle. 

Besides it, all there is left is keep writing for no one, since no one reads these, and honestly, no one reads nothing of what I write, so I can only hope to smile and keep getting worse. With peace, me. Goodbye.