I hate my mom's boyfriend

My mom loves me until I express to her how her boyfriend makes me feel and how much he mistreats me and yells at me for no reason and tells me I'm faking my depression and how I'm disrespectful for expressing how I feel. How am I disrespectful for being suicidal? I don't need to be around people when I'm sad I need to be alone. Being around people is the problem. He calls me a liar when I say that I'm never okay because "you were laughing and smiling earlier" I don't like being around people unless it's people I want to be around. I love my friends I hate all of my family except my mom. But she only loves me until I tell her how I feel. I don't want to tell you how I feel because you'll yell at me and tell me "There's so many people that love you" or "do you realize how I would feel if you killed yourself" THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOU. It's my problems I need help. I NEED YOU TO HELP AND AND LOVE ME AND GIVE ME THE ATTENTION THAT YOU HAVE NEVER EVEN WANTED TO GIVE TO ME UNLESS I WAS BEING THE KID YOU WANTED ME TO BE. all of my mom's boyfriends have mistreated me just because I'm a teenage "girl" and act like I'm gonna get pregnant just by being in the presence of a boy. No boy at my school likes me enough to even touch me. They all run away from me just because of how I look and they all bully me and hate me just because I express myself differently. Even my principal said that if I didn't express myself this way then I wouldn't get picked on. They shouldn't pick on me anyway. I thought you said you didn't tolerate bullying. I get bullied everyday I've been getting bullied everyday since the fucking 2nd grade. AND YOU DID NOTHING. NOT A SINGLE FUCKING TEACHER DID ANYTHING. WHEN I WAS IN THE BATHROOM CUTTING MYSELF BC ALL OF MY TEACHERS GOT MAD AT ME BC I WAS CRYING IN CLASS ACTING LIKE THEY DONT SEE THE PEOPLE IN THEIR CLASSROOM BARKING AT ME AND TELLING ME TO KILL MYSELF.  LIKE THEY DONT SEE PEOPLE POKING ME WITH A FUCKING PENCIL TO ACT LIKE IM FUCKING RABBID DOG. I HATE EVERYONE IN MY SCHOOL. IF I HAD A GUN ID KILL EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM AND THEN KILL MYSELF LIKE THEY ALL WANT ME TO DO. I DONT EVEN BLAME SCHOOL SHOOTERS. ALL OF THOSE FUCKERS DESERVE IT AND I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHAT ANYONE SAYS. And to my mom's boyfriend. Don't you fucking DARE to act like you have ANY athority over me. Your not my father. You fucking racist piece of shit. 

I didn't mean what I said about school shooters. I'm sorry.