Christmas (YAP WARNING!!)

Merry Christmas day!! 🎄🎅🎁

I can't not say I haven't been waiting all year for this holiday and I most definitely was not disappointed with my gifts. But after opening all of them, I got this empty feeling. Like a broken lightbulb glowing one last time before it starts blinking again. I am very grateful for my gifts and I had a nice time with my family but I couldn't shake the feeling. A longing for what once was. I ache for the christmas joy of childhood. It isn't fair. I'm only thirteen, I have so much time left but I had to become aware early. I blame the internet honestly. It's probably a big reason I feel this way. But christmas is over, so now what? What doI have to be excited for? What do I do? I can't watch holiday movies, the decorations are being put away, no snow at all this year (dont even get me started on that) and the thrill of receiving new things is gone. But maybe thats okay? Maybe bieng stuck in an after christmas pre new years is good for me. Relaxation and shit. 

Sorry if this bummed you out, I just had some things I wanted to share and remebered I have this blog I can update. Maybe that's something I'll start doing. I wish you the best of "winter" breaks and a happy new year.

-Sal