does anyone else's family js celebrate christmas halfway??

my mom isn't really the festive type and even though christmas and new years are a tradition in my country she just doesn't like it and no one else in my family cares. im an only child so i guess there's no one else who'll complain with me, but i js hate seeing everyone else decorate their houses, have huge family dinner, get each other presents while the most my mom will do is get some christmas lights and cook a normal dinner. 

i had to force my parents to get a tree this year. i don't really care for presents i get as much as i want to give my family some but they laughed when i said we should give each other something this year.

i mean, seeing my friends celebrate and get and give so many presents makes my kind of sad, like i wish i had siblings so then maybe something would be different but i guess then they would have an excuse of not having enough money for all of us. 

it sucks cuase most i ever ask for are some books but it's been ages since i've gotten any presents. my parents think anything purchased from november to february is a christmas gift.

and since im 16 and don't have a job, i can't even get them gifts without permission... and guess what? they don't want me to. today my mom got mad at me for wanting to go to the mall to buy a secret santa gift even though the deadline was tomorrow... i had to ask my friends to postpone it, you can't imagine how embarrassed i was.

and then they wonder why i have no christmas spirit.