Entry 2

hi.. I accidently skipped yesterday but in my defense, I had kinda a late night (u_u).. anyways. It's taking me kinda a long time to get my words together right now. Fighting for front isn't fun, it drains me. Lonnnnnggg day today. Shower Day and Laundry Day landed on the same day so it was a lot for little ol' me. Especially since I had to dry my clothes 3 times which means I had to walk back and forth from my apartment to the laundry mat an upwards of around 7 times. Uphill. In the Cold. Not very fun. I get very paranoid walking places by myself so today was so tiring. I wasn't able to do my afternoon workouts until around 1:30 which is so off schedule it makes me frown. I tried my best to nap afterwards but it proved difficult and I ended up just dissociating for a couple hours. I didn't feel like eating until 5 but I ate dinner at 6 today. I had some SpaghettiOs, which was very yummy :-) !! I plan on eating lunch tomorrow, very excited. I'll say what it is in my entry tomorrow.. Tomorrow is also grocery day!! Not excided to the store on Christmas Eve but it's alright. People watching will be fun so I'm taking my wins where I can. Some other things that happened today: I walked all the way to the laundry mat only to realize I forgot the tide pods I needed so I had to wake my poor dad up to walk some over to me. I accidently tripped a breaker by turning my wax warmer on, I ran out my room so fast into my dads room I think it was a record. I accidently said "hello!" instead of "excuse me" when addressing someone on my walk back to my apartment. My politeness knows no bounds (words from my dad).

I watched 'Electric Dreams' (1985) today and OH. MY. GOODNESS!! I defiantly understand why so many people have told me to watch this movie. It moved me to tears it's so wonderful. The entire watching experience was so fun and the characters where such a joy. I really see myself in Edger a lot, in the end sequence where he asks Miles to hold him I really saw myself there. I couldn't recommend it enough. It weirdly made me want to rewatch 'The Truman Show' which is another movie I see myself in a lot. Everything can be a metaphor for autism if you try hard enough God Bless... 

I want to make a new OC story soon, I feel like I have so many ideas I just need to figure out how to put them on paper.. I get so paranoid when sharing OC things but I'm thinking about sharing some on here when I feel comfortable :-) 

Today I am thankful for my dad and everything he does to make me feel comfortable and safe, and also applesauce 

That's all from me, more tomorrow !