i lov bpd

bro i split last night and got so mad i was twitching and shaking and grinding my teeth. said "i hope you die, sincerely. i hope you and your little girlfriend fucking die" to a guy i still kindof have feelings for and then proceeded to bawl my eyes out. whatever chat. im still unsure on if i should move on from him or not cause ive never loved anyone this much before and hes literally my dream guy. WHATEVER CHAT. maybe i just need to die and things will be better