Nepotism: The Musical!

it's probably my fault that i let myself believe that i actually had a shot in getting a role here. i should've known that i was never getting anything. the musical is Footloose. it's my senior year, i've gone to districts for choir for two years and have danced for most of my life, but that doesn't actually matter. what matters is if you babysit the director's kids. the part i really wanted was a supporting dancing role, it was really fun and had a lot of songs that i like. i even tried out for the dancing role. the person who go the part i wanted started attempting the dancing tryout, couldn't do it, said "i can't do this, this is too hard," and left. then got the lead dancing role. 

i'm going to commit mass homicide. 

the girl who's the lead has gotten the lead for the past three years. she can't sing. she's been getting these roles not based on talent, but because her dad was the beloved choir teacher for years and he died a few years ago from covid cause he didn't trust the vaccine. oh, she also babysits the directors kids, which definitely helps. 

another one of the leads has never sung in her life. she's never been in choir, she just, you guessed it, babysits the director's kids. oh, and she's the sister of this kid who actually EARNED leads in the plays/musicals and the director loved him. so. 

freshmen and sophomores got better roles than i did. FRESHMEN AND SOPHOMORES. i don't even have a named role. i've been trying and working for YEARS but it doesn't even matter cause i've never babysat her kids. 

the worst part is, everybody knows that these people never earn or deserve these roles. but no one can do anything about it. the musical is shit and everyone knows why but the director doesn't see it because her little favorites are the leads so what could go wrong? 

i'm over this. i've always loved theater, but i'm sick of getting fucked over. i hate most of the cast. i think i have two friends that i actually want to spend time with in the cast. and, quite frankly, i don't have the time to get looked over and not be appreciated so that i can spend months with people i can't stand. sorry. winter track was expecting me to join, i'm the only high jumper this year. i'll go there, where i'm actually appreciated. where i matter. where the coaches CAN'T just throw their favorites as the top of every event because times. don't. lie. 

to be honest, the fall play wasn't great and i don't have the energy to watch the exact same cast sing for the next show. sorry. and guess what? if i quit, so does my brother (who actually got a role as a FRESHMAN) because he thinks this is shit and only tried out so that he could do a musical with me before i graduate. so. have fun filling that role. i'm sure there's someone else who babysat your kids that can get the role. why would i put myself through hell for something i don't even care about? 

the worst part is that part of me still thinks it will be worth it. i got ensemble in the last production i did, and it was the best acting experience that i've ever had. but that was different. there were upperclassmen that included everyone, that made it fun. now all we have is nepo babies that lie so that they can have everything to themselves (for the play, we always have a cast party at this one restaurant, and they lied to everyone and said nobody was going so that no one actually went and the three of them just got to hang out there on their own). i don't know how it can be fun when i'm stuck in almost the exact part with the same person who i can't stand being around. 

fuck this. 

i'm just so pissed cause i love theater, and this was my last chance to be in a production and now i don't even get to enjoy it. i was so excited. i've been looking forward to this since i couldn't do the musical last year. but now it's all been ruined. i can't even cry anymore. am i really not good enough? cause that's how it feels. 

cowboy bob's band? with some freshmen who have never been in a production before? i don't even get featured. it isn't even a dancing part. the song is also shit, i listened to it and it's awful. but i guess that's all i'm good enough for. i don't even have a name. 

i'm not the only one this has happened to. my friend who i hung with the entire fall play has been getting told by the director since the show was released that she has a perfect role for her. she even said it at her audition. do you wanna know what that role is? adult ensemble. fuck. this. i think she's dropping out too. that's bullshit. she helps with set for every show, and was even an officer of drama club. but, no, she didn't babysit the director's kids. she can't have any role of significance. most of the two ensembles are choir kids who actually work hard in order to sing but just don't babysit the director's kids. a lot of seniors and juniors, too. so i hope they didn't have any hope for actually earning a role they deserve, because the only way you get cast is through nepotism. 

i was even talking to my friends that were in the pit last year, and they're all pissed. this is the same cast for last year's musical, and last year was a trainwreck. the lead girl (who's the same as this year) had a part that didn't fit her voice and made her sound really strained, and they couldn't even bring the pit in until tech week because most of the leads weren't ready. it was a hot mess, and nobody actually enjoyed the show. i'm SO glad it's the same way this year. 

the male lead this year has been complaining to everyone, too. during call backs, they had a few different girls sing with him to see how they'd sound. the one girl is in choir, she's really good, and her voice blended AMAZINGLY with his. they blended perfectly. later, he even said that he could feel sparks between them while they were singing (not like in a romantic way, they don't like each other, in like a musical acting way). everyone who was listened was SURE that she was getting the lead. nobody else who sang with him sounded good. it HAD to be her. but, no. guess who didn't get it. the girl who can sing. let's just give it to the girl who's gotten a lead since freshmen year because she's the director's favorite. 

i've heard that so many people want to quit. they're sick of the nepotism and hate their parts, why wouldn't they quit? 

sorry about my rant. i hope you found it entertaining.