"Internal Conflict"

This is my first time drawing something meaningful to me, pretty much ever.

//suicide, discussed

"

The cold at night has been colder, recently.
I wish I could tell you why, but when I think about death it just doesn't seem like the solution.
Suicide, as much as I wish it was an answer, is just something I don't think about. Yet I still want a break from it all.

No, I need a break from it all. That's probably why my twisted, fucked-up brain wishes it was as simple as killing myself.
I know it's a blessing in disguise, — not being suicidal — but a way out would be so nice right now.

For now I'll just listen to music as I stay up until sunrise. I wish the leaves were still falling, cold nights are too dreary...

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