Fear

5..Screaming I can hear screaming as I cry into my blanket will it go away or will I forever be dreaming of a new way of life.

10..Door slams as I leave my room glass on the floor I start to clean up because there is nothing else to do.

15..Crying in my room again, will the pain ever collapse or am I destined for this life a cycle of pain and tears. 

The tears why do they fall "crybaby" they call me "smile more" they say so I do but truly I am in  pain banging on a wall in my head to be let out when can I come out. Fearing my family, friends, myself I can never come out Ill only get hurt . And the pain in my wrist is enough so I block them all out never knowing the true me.