I GOT THE JOB!!!

Literally winning at life rn (other than my mental health problems lol working on it). I got hired at the hospital that I was reaaaally gunning for so I will have hella benefits because I'm an employee of the state now. It's also so much better than I expected. I prefer working nights I'm absolutely NOT a morning person but the only available listings were for mornings so I just told them my preference was nights but that I'd take anything cuz I figured I'd have to work mornings. MY SHIFT IS FROM 1:30 AM TO 10 AM!!! YEAAAHHH I love nights! They also only had listings for a part time assignment but they were like fuck it, we ball and gave me full time with $22.06 hourly which is fucking awesome. I've gotta do 3 days of zoom call orientation which starts  January 8th, then I get 4-5 weeks of training, then I can work completely unsupervised as an offical part of the phlebotomy department! Unfortunately, the training hours are very strict, they probably only have a few people qualified to train new workers, so my training shifts will be 7:30 am to 3:30 pm but I'll take it cuz it's only for a month or so. Luckily, the time range for both the training shifts and my permanent shifts are really convenient for my current personal plans as well. I've been looking into this online intensive outpatient program called Charlie Health cuz I feel like I really need more intensive treatment for my current mental state. I was worried that I'd have to cancel it if I got the job too soon since they might be at the same time but it turns out the Charlie Health therapy sessions are more flexible than I thought. They said they have 5 pm groups which should be fine for while I'm working mornings and nights since I can definitely get home by 5 after the morning shift and I can wake up early after the night shifts. Once I switch to nights I probably won't get a whole lot of sleep because of the program but that's alright because it's not permanent and I'm really good at operating while sleep deprived (I hate you insomnia but also thank you).The program is between 9-12 weeks so I won't be sleep deprived for long since I'll most likely start it a few weeks before I start my job anyway. I'm really hoping that some more intense focus on my issues and coping mechanisms with new therapists will help me cuz it's really becoming hard to see any way to fix myself atp. The program attracted my attention because they have like a BUNCH of different types of therapy that focus on different things so maybe I'll gain something new that I can bring into my regular weekly sessions once I'm done with the program. I also think that they have people qualified to diagnose things so I'm hoping I can get some more perspectives on my symptoms cuz I think I have BPD. Extremely tired of all these fucking problems bro like why can't I just have one thing why is it like 50 things my god! Catching mental illnesses like pokemon. I really read the DSM 5 and said "that's my personality now" like bruhhhh! /hj Nah but I am happy that the job won't interfere with me participating in this program and I'm SOOOO happy I got all of my preferences accommodated cuz wokring mornings long term would probably kill me fr. I'm very glad they accepted me, it's such a good hospital to work at they have a really reputable union! :D

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