explanation for when you're ready

you genuinely don't even know how absolutely sorry I am for that I like TRULY am sorry I don't even know how to explain it like i would give up like everything to make up for it even another performance shit I'm so sorry 

it's not an excuse but I've been so snappy with everyone literally like everybody is getting attacked just because I'm hungry tired in pain quite a bit or my parents.. it's my own fault and I honestly shouldn't be taking anything on, not just you, but literally everybody in my life. but especially you. I don't want to upset you but sometimes I feel like you think I'm so much negative stuff and I don't think and the oddest shit comes out man and god i feel sk guilty as soon as i remember what i did it hits me like a fuckin boxer and suddenly im ko'd with pure regret you dont even understand how goddamn sorry i am frfr... hunger isn't an excuse being tired isn't an excuse being in pain isn't an excuse feeling like you hate me and either just hearing mt parents argue or me recieving some kf the shouts definitely isnt an excuse i love you so fucking much anr if I let simple things like that disrupt my mood and therefore my bkyfruend you clwarly dewerve someone who can always havevrheir mind on you, not comoletely stupud and troubled man i just want to always be on a lookout for you but my stupirnmind cknvinces me sk muchbthingsnandnim just so exhausted man no exchse again, take a break withnme krnyounneed snd just ignkre me man

I love yku