everything is going to be okay

i’ll drag my own lips into a smile if i have to

if i lost it someday 

would i be able to hide it?

the person i am behind closed doors

is unmanageable

unstable 

i want to feel anger 

i do feel anger 

but no one’s ever gonna see that 

i’ll be the shoulder to cry on

i’ll be someone’s “p-chan”

i hate being texted in that way 

it makes me feel repulsed 

i want to vomit 

pry at my face in horrible rage

but that’ll never happen

will it?

i’m a ticking timb bomb 

tick tick tick tick tick tick!!

tick fucking tick!!

-vane