blog #3

Hi ! My third blog thrd times the lucky charm. This is what i look like at the time of posting

I feel like i use bulletins a lot to talk about random subjects an i guess i wanna kind of shift that over to blogs over time... Maybe try and save up topics in my brain to write about it ALL in ONE big blog post instead of just randomly writing long pieces of bulletinblog all the time. This is what i will attempt to do:) i've been also wanting to explore the blog section generally. recent stuff, i mean. i go there sometimes not a lot and jesus the popular pages stink!!!!!!!!!!!.... most the time :p Anyway...........

I wanna talk about weirdness. How long can Kris even go without MENTIONING the fact that he's really damn weird?! Well, i just don't think it's very needed to mention that. Eveyrone can see it. In fact it's like this in real life too! I can't even TRY to be normal i just fall over and flop horribly so might as well just be myself at 120 while i do it xP Being myself makes more people laugh and smile than being a ghost only capable of inflicting second hand embarrassment anyway! Boy can i inflict it when i'm not acting confident in mysefl!

...Thats  a very important Fuck my elbow  important tip When you're really fucking awkward, when in doubt, Literally just act really confident. Confidence will save you!!! Some people might hate you MORE for it but WTF do you care?! Ur confident! BUT!!!!!!!!!! remain humble. CHances are if you are confident enough to not inflict second hand embarrassment when you fuck up real bad, but humble enough to not come across as annoying when covering for your real bad fuck ups, people MIGHT...MIGHT......Actually like you or something. But that's just a theory i have

(yesterday, i saw someone have "ego-centric" in their dni. This made me abstain from interacting...)

I guess i also really like that there's literal subcultures like reviving themselves on here, specifically scene, that r all about being cringe n teen n WEIRD. I never really was too around scene stuff as a kid, so i don't connect to it all that much (though ive been told i remind some people of invader zim, who i AM awre is the icon of scene) but i guess my behavor fits into it? Probably! I dunno! I can't raelly fit myself into anyhting im ujst meeeeeee.... and. I got autism. I do really enjoy the release of talking abt myself to an audience i mostly don't really care about disappointing. It is nice to talk about random shit that pops into my head.

It's also sad though like weird people are easy to targer i feel like im easy to target but also i am like AVerage artist holyfuck this like actually probably has altered my worldview why are all artists so cool and weird? Like its literally like we are just predisposed to a truer worldview just by being an artist, whats up with that? It's literally all of them except like i dont know the 5% that are rich. All rich people suck btw boo boo tomato. My entire family just accepts it that im just fucking weird because im artistically talented like they dont GAF theyre just like ur an artist i cant understand you, inherently. Like my halfsister  Had to mention her in class for an assignment today  But when i went to her concert she saw my gothass shirt and went  oh the andersons(imagine my real surname here it just doesnt hit when i just say surname) always are a little bit weirD! Have not been able to stop thinking about it. We are not a little weird we are the weirdest fucking people in the entire country I MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (anderson would be a fucked up surname for me. my face would start melting just due to the cosmic imbalance of how much it would NOT fit me...)

Along with being an artist comes being politically "extremist". Apparently. I don't think political extremism is extremism at all, not to get political or anything, but i bet i could ask my dad hey do you like capitalism he'll say No hes been poor as fuck his entire life and that's like, that's literally all that's needed. No one likes capitalism and a system that still allows fascism at the top. We have to and CAN dismantle it and we HAVE TO!. It's silly as fuck you really realize this literally as soon as you do any thinking at all on politics while having sympathy or BEING a marginalized person. Just pisses me off i still got called brainwashed commie. But no. Politics are complex as fuck especially when history is involved and oh boy its always involved. espeically in my country. It's definitely something i want to research and a reason i wanna visit the library more often. It's definitely.....so much reading, though.....Something im already bad at and i also always sucked at history. Sooooo lame of me HONESTLY

Anyway i think that's about all i wanted to say on this one hefty topic of weirdness for NOW i need to get to my mandarins now. Happy mandarins season everyone!