Goodbye SpaceHey + Plans for the Future

Well, I think it's time to finally confess and just let it all out at once. So, yes, I am actually gonna be taking my leave from SpaceHey and attempting to stay off social media. I might come back in the near future but if the majority vote is stacked against me then I will be gone for good or at the very least make an update blog later down the line.

It’s gonna be hard for me because social media has been a major influencer in my life and it’s what I relied on for a good portion of my life because I/I’ve struggled with human interaction due to being shy in real life. But I digress. I will be getting therapy whenever I am off the waiting list but in the meantime, I will find ways to occupy myself— Such as spending time with family, playing games, walking or anything else among those examples. I promise that I'll be dedicating myself to change for everyone that I've harmed. I want to show people that there's still a spark of dignity left inside me— Even if small. 

I’m already quitting my sexual tensions. I will be working on ways to tell people how I feel, incorporating tone indicators into my vocabulary and asking people beforehand if they’re comfortable even after the fact. I know this all sounds like a bunch of hippie dippie bologna because in the past I've said this plenty and yet nothing has changed— But after seeing and reading what people think of me I think it affected me negatively but also positively. I had a talk with Zeren and I will be working towards a better future to ensure that people are comfortable at all times and that I won't slip up.

Again, I am sorry for those whom I've endangered or hurt. That's all I'll say on the matter.

I will confess that I was being ignorant and I did make that blog to try and guilt-trip others to feel remorseful but the second apology wasn't meant to be taken that way. I also will admit that I do hope to be forgiven— To an extent. I don't want people to forgive me for what I did entirely because I really fucked up— But I just want another chance to be let back in the community in the future when I’ve proven my keep and atone for my actions. Let me know what you think of that. I do want feedback for this because it greatly helps me out.

Before I finish this off I just want to say “Thanks,” to everyone. I had a good time on SpaceHey (for the most part). I'm sorry that I misconceived a lot of you all and lost your trust because of my behavior and tendencies but I hope later down the line I will be able to prove to everyone that I have changed.

Well, that about sums it up! I hope that this serves as a better blog than its predecessors. 

Godspeed, SpaceHey.