first post

i've had this account for a year and never posted a blog because i find it hard to get my words into writing! but i'm gonna share a bit of poetry i wrote and i'll hopefully carry on posting

CW: ED, hints of derealization

there's someone else living in my body                                                                                        i can tell because he keeps the lights off                                                                                    and the door ajar

he leaves a scale on the bathroom floor                                                                                    and a journal of everything we eat

i watch through a foggy window                                                                                               as he talks about..something                                                                                                    he really makes me feel ugly.

there's someone else living in my body                                                                                      and it isn't me

i can tell because when someone asks me how things are                                                            i freeze and stutter a joke

they say one foot in front of the other                                                                                      but my legs have gone weak

there's someone else living in my body                                                                                    and i don't know how to tell him to leave                                                                                     

because those scales on the bathroom floor                                                                                and that door left ajar                                                                                                            feel like home