Addressing the Allegations - JaydonEpic

Hello everyone. I'm actually gonna be going in-depth about a lot of things that've come out in the last two days and address them properly instead of just saying “oh, I was NSFW to a lot of people,” I want to discuss some of these instances so you get a better understanding. But before we start, I do wanna go on a little tangent.

To the people who are saying that I was exposing myself for clout or trying to guilt trip everyone is just wrong— I’ve expressed openly that I don't want people to forgive me and I'd much rather get blocked and forgotten on SpaceHey. Tell me honestly who’d actually out themselves instead of just running away to another account underneath an entirely different identity? I wanted to try and atone for my actions, but I guess that option is off the table now. I know it won't mean much but I sincerely apologize for my behavior towards people— But everyone ganging up on me when I am still trying to do the right thing by coming clean is just,, I understand the resentment.

I was originally gonna delete my SpaceHey and Discord but I decided against it solely because there's some evidence for people to collect and I do want people to tell their experiences and stories as much as it paints a bad picture of me— But I don't care about that cause honestly, I will admit to everything that’s been talked about it. Yes, on my old account I created a bulletin and it had NSFW responses to my secret share which obviously wasn't good because there were minors that had me added and I quickly issued an apology for those who were upset because that was inappropriate of me. I then went on to have NSFW Discord statuses that expressed certain desires which again, I was being irrational and not thinking straight while displaying those desires actively to my friends’ list.

After these instances though I did stop adding people who were 13 and unfriended certain individuals and explicitly expressed that I don't want anything to do NSFW related to these people don't make the conversation around that. As far as I remember, I only made one or two NSFW bulletins on my original account and one of ‘em was just a joke about how my classmate was uhh, excited while watching a movie in school but that was far later on after all that happened.

I also did make a Discord server and I did eventually end up making a NSFW channel contradicting myself but it was only made up of a few people (minors). I hadn't acknowledged people were uncomfortable because again, people don't normally let me be aware of their feelings— And if they do it's usually in a cryptic manner which sucks because I am not good at taking a hint. Anyway, one individual in particular was very uncomfortable and I won't be giving any names and if they happen to see this— I'm sorry for everything that I've done. It was juvenile of me to subject you to things that you made very clear you weren't comfortable with and I neglected it. I also apologize for the constant harassment and belittling. I don't have an excuse to make because I did that on my own behalf.

After all that, I still continued my ways with other people. I’ve flirted and hit on plenty of people from SpaceHey and proceeded to give them dry text whenever we were talking normally which is just… Disrespectful. I also did a lot of putting the blame on others and yes, I will admit that I did guilt trip some people— But I never went as far as to try and get anything out of anyone. I’ve expressed plenty that I do want people to be able to come forward about their concerns and if they're uncomfortable because I am willing to drop the act and behave because I never want that. But it looks like I failed at that— I'm gonna quickly highlight a good couple of things that I've done real quick.

As you all know, I've said a lot of distasteful things to others and some I don't remember but I will say that I've tried making advantages on others, flirting with others but I never tried to force anyone into anything and if I did then I apologize, again. I also do have a habit of becoming dry when something doesn't interest me or due to me being socially burnt out and resorting to instead being harsh and rude for no particular reason besides for my own foolish entertainment which already sounds like a problematic person to be in contact with. I ghost people oftentimes because I am just selfish and rude to certain people. I also have the mentality that I'm above everyone else which makes me an egotistical person for thinking that way.

If I missed anything, I apologize. I am not by any means trying to avoid certain subjects or anything of the sort. I’ve interacted with a fair amount of people from SpaceHey and this isn't me trying to undermine any of my victims. All I'll say is that I hope you're healing and I'm sorry for my actions. That's all I can really do is apologize— If there's anything you want me to do then I am willing to do just about anything to show that I do care and I'm not just trying to regain the trust of you all. Okay, this is kinda the meat of the potatoes and this will invalidate all the people sticking by me.

I was in contact with this one person and I tried my damndest to be kind to them— They were struggling in life and I wanted to be helpful by giving them my perspective on things. They thanked me and we kinda just kept talking from that point on— Until I began making advances with said person. I told them that I am only gonna continue along if they're comfortable because I didn't want them to be iffy about it and we both agreed. Later, I invited them to the Discord server and they helped me out. I made the NSFW channel later down the line and they were in it— This is the gross part so trigger warning for people.

I came to find out that I wasn't thinking straight and I didn't ask the age of the individual— I found out that they were 13. I was obviously very disgusted with myself because never did I want to engage sexually with someone of that age. I apologized repeatedly and we both agreed that what I did was wrong but to just leave it alone. That's about it for the story besides the fact I treated them like garbage later on which I fucking hate myself for because that’s all I've done is be rude to people who don't deserve it.

I don't know if this has been talked about or exposed already but if it hasn't then this is solid enough evidence that what I am saying is genuine and that I genuinely mean it when I say all these things. I want to better myself and I think one of the first things to do is to highlight what may be the worst thing I've done to someone even if it wasn't intentional. I might've done worse than that but it was the age difference that makes it the worst for me.

I’m sorry if this has further tarnished your outlook on me but I will make a promise— I know that I make lots of those but I am gonna dedicate myself to it. I’m gonna get therapy, I'm gonna mature, I will do everything in my power not to endanger others like this going forward. I wish you all knew how much this has been affecting me because it truly has been. I send my regards to everyone that I've harmed. I will do everything in my power to prove that I mean it, too. I will hurt myself if that provides satisfaction because I just feel completely awful and remorseful about everything.

I'm gonna be on a long hiatus from here. I just wanted to tell my story even though people have already begun telling theirs and try to get this out there to a wider audience. I promise to reform while I'm away. I hope that this provides some perspective on what kind of person I am. I’m so sorry for my ways. I wish that I could prove it but just believe me I really am so much so that I couldn't sleep last night for a good while. I am beating a dead horse but once again… Sorry.