Vurtue signilin, political theater, and how it continues to hurt small artists trying to live.

Yeah idk still about the state of that club I preformed there last week and I might have to again regardless of my feelings about it. I am literally living in my partners dorm and my dad barely has enough money to feed himself let alone me and I really do not know what to do. I have not really been able to express my dispare regarding the state of my life to anyone I do not even want to think about it plus I am nearly constantly on the go so I have not really had a chance to decompress. I really just want to stay in the dorm and cuddle with my partner and they have had so much today that ive maybe seen them for an hour not even and theres a week left until he has to leave for three weeks and I have to decide if it is even viable for me to go home or just off to my friend lissas and I really want to be home for christmas even if I know I wont get anything...I just want my dad to be okay and some bookings so I can support myself even a sugar daddy or a job or something so I dont have to worry about it and can actually help my dad out. I do not want to have to work at this club but I dont have a choice so many of us just dont have a choice in the matter but it still reflects badly on us that the owners are shit people and theres nothing we can do about it. whatever at the end of the day it doesnt matter what the owners seem to support it isnt even like theye putting money towards the genocide in Gaza and you wouldnt judge someone for working at mcdonalds even though they are because theyre just trying to get their coin just like I am. Whats a boycott going to do but put all these people out of work but take the only weekly drag open call out of the city like idk maybe Ive just fallen for the rugged individualism that america propagates.