Dream

Hello yall! If you haven’t seen my other posts I am a mom and step mom. Anywho, just sitting here drinking my coffee and boom a thought came to my mind. I teach my older child to always follow her dreams and if you work hard enough you CAN do anything, the sky is the limit unless you shoot for the stars. But am I a hypocrite? here I am working a meaningless job part time and being a mother. I mean being a mother was always a dream of mine and I got that. But if I’m not working hard for my passion what am I really teaching her? Life’s hard give up your dream? Kids change everything? Now the thought of actually going back to collage freaks me out, will it be too hard? What if I fail? Do I have time? But then I sit and pounder, I have time to wright blogs, watch tv, sit on my ass. I have the time, it’s the motivation that i lack. I let my insecurities win and I hope that’s not rubbing off on my kids. Now here I am trying to figure out how to do it? How to change my mind set, get up and do the damn thing. I want my kids to grow up saying wow my mom(&step) did it and be proud of me for following my dreams and I want my family to be by my side rooting for me while I do it. I need to follow through with it and not just talk big, I would say I need someone to just grab me by the face and yell what the fuck are you doing!? FUCKING GO FOR IT! But the only person holding me back is myself and im the only one that can change that. Well that’s all! Have a blessed day! And if you are like me and need a Swift kick in the ass here it is 🦵🍑 I believe in you, even if you do fail I am so proud of you for trying!