not updates, just talk

hi!! so, I haven't posted in here because i was really bussy with school, yesterday (11/12) I had to go to look for some things and see if I already passed the year (wich I did!!) and now I don't have to go anymore, i'm pretty happy bc school has already ended, this year was more easy and not that weird than the last year actually, but I still had some small problems.

this days have been really weird... more than weird, pretty hard actually. My mom was a pretty healthy, energetic and happy person before all the pain started a couple of months ago, so now seeing her like this, on the bed all day, without eating well and in a lot of pain 
is pretty weird for me, I miss being able to hug her so hard until she told me to stop while laughing, i miss seeing her comming trough the door with a smile on her face when she was back from work or hanging out with her to get some ice cream or pizza, I just miss her.
Even tho she wasn't perfect at all, i miss her

I've been really tired this days, taking care of my lil sister and my mom while she's in pain and I can't do anything about it (she has some pain medicines, but I still can't give it to her by myself, its an injection and I can't take the risk of doing it wrong) and also having to take care of my mental health after a really rough time with it it's really hard, and more considering I'm the older sister and the only one that can do all that while my dad works.

I'm getting frustrated bc it's always me, I have to do even the smallest things even when I just sat down after hours of cooking, doing the laundry or anything else, I know I'm the one that has to help with it but its just so tiring and weird after waiting for this month to finally rest and start my vacations, but things are never as planned i guess.