Whirlwind Romance

I have a boyfriend now :)

Crazy that a little over two weeks ago, I wasn't sure which direction my romantic life was going to go. I had prospects, including one who just recently started flirting with me, too, but just a little too late: I had already gotten attached to another suitor, LOL. (I also just generally was not interested, to be fair)

Last I talked about my new boyfriend, Han, I hadn't met him in person yet, so my primary concern was compatibility and whether I'd be put in a "dominant," heteronormative role. Neither were a problem. At all. I invited him to a queer history exhibit I was coordinating a couple days after my last blogpost, and met him in person there. And I really liked him. He's funny, willing to be himself, shared a lot of values with me. I pretty firmly solidified my intent to date him, and only him, there. A couple days later we went on our first actual date, he came to my place and we watched some of Quinton Reviews' incredibly long iCarly video, talked, then we got dinner. A couple days later, he had a presentation he was nervous about, so I met him before that and we just held hands, and I asked if I could give him a kiss on the cheek, for luck. He said yes :).

That was this last Tuesday, then Friday we met up after I was off work and ended up talking for hours after, we realized we should probably head out around 11:30PM, lol. When I dropped him off at his place, he asked if he could kiss me, I said yes. I was expecting like, a small peck, but boy really went for it. My heart definitely skipped a few beats. The next day, we had another "official" date, we went to some antique stores, a huge half price books, and a movie. We kissed a few times; mostly in my car. Then at half-price books, we were in the LGBTQ+ book section and I saw a book with "boyfriend" in the title, and got a nervous, half-baked idea, that seemed to enter my mind much too soon... should I ask if it's okay to call him my boyfriend? Finally after a couple minutes of my brain bouncing off the walls of my skull, I asked. Han smiled at me, then turned away, half-embarrassed. "Oh, I had already been doing that. I figured I'd just tell you later." I was so giddy I didn't know what to do with myself. We saw Saltburn, which is absolutely NOT a date movie, but thankfully we're both weird and found the whole thing hilarious, so it was a non-issue. I went to drop him off around 11:30... I was pulling out of that parking lot around 12:30, I'll be real with y'all. And I had taken some initiative that time, leaving him more flustered than I think I've ever left someone in my life. Then yesterday I had him over and we had lunch with my roommate and his boyfriend, then they left and I kept Han company while he studied. We only lost the plot for like, 45 minutes before he had to leave.

It feels like it's been a whirlwind, I chastise myself for moving so quickly. But it feels entirely natural somehow? Also, winter break is approaching, and I won't see him for a month, so I justify myself by saying I'm just preparing for that. I'm hoping he might come back to campus from his hometown sooner... Idk. I'm getting ahead of myself. How do I chill out?! I'm a man of big emotion. But Han likes that about me... he just finds all my strangeness charming. And I find all of his strangeness charming. We get along so well. Who'd have thought?!

-chasey