uughhh

today i like had a stupid panic attack at school which is kind of cringe and i hate myself for it cuz like i made a whole scene T^T 
but the rest of today was fine i suppose, i mean like i think i made someone cry cuz i gave my boyfriend more attention than him but he said it was cuz of like feeling left out, WHICH I GET BUT but it was like for 4 mins that i was saying shit to my bf and not him so like idk mannn

i kind of feel bad but also not. like he gets sad alot cuz of me and idk how to like help him cuz i dont really care cuz i like barely know him which seems rude but yeah idk man

so like idk what to do at this point and school suckz