abandonment issues [kind of a vent idk]

i've noticed people tend to leave me when i need them most. it's not fun. especially the most recent incident, where one of my dearest friends had left me completely because he wasn't comfortable seeing me in my current state. it's not my fault i'm more cardinal than human, dude, i swear....
oh? you don't know what that means?
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it's best if you don't.