goth rant

I think over winter(weiner) break I wanna just do goth shit. really any shit, but just being goth while doing it idk. like dressing like krampus and just walking around idk, getting a donut. I wanna look more goth but idk how to do that without looking like a total queermo. I wear all black, but I mainly just look greasy and sad. WHY DO GOTH CHICKS GET ALL THE FUN WITH THE DRESSES AND THE MAKEUP AND CRAP. not that I wanna wear a dress I'm just saying where's that expression/level of intensity when your a dude who's goth. bro look up "goth men" on google and GOD CRINGE ALSO FUCK MARILYN MANSON. ok Pinterest search totally different story as expected nvm. I already quit smoking so that's gone. bruh Imma paint my face just cause I can. like rn. There's no one who's actually like goth at my school everyone's kinda just stuck in that 2020  "alt" style or they're a stoner (not that I have an issue with that I just haven't been high since the early summer and it's getting to be too long) I once saw a goth woman in my town and I thought she was so cool and I really hope she didn't think I was one of those asshole fetishizers who don't even know anything about goth culture. what I wouldn't give for there to be any alternative scene in my town, but even then everyone kinda sucks who is already slightly alternative where I'm from. Not you GALE (#sussifer) the og emo, but yk.