fear of abandonment.

i deleted all of my vent posts about my friends.. and i want to delete the fear of abandonment out of my head. i am actually going to call out names now because i genuinely needed to post this for my own sanity.

escalator, i dont want to lose you as a friend because youre one of the only funny socially awkward friends that i have. you made me giggle, and sometimes when i played roblox w you, people around me would ask whats making me smile at my phone. you helped me complete part of imigrantes roads current arg, helped me make theories, helped advertise an omori mod, and helped me feel better. sometimes i cry because you werent there for a few days. 

emokid, i dont want to lose you because you absolutely need to get up and get exercise. i remind you to. you keep saying you havent even ran in 4 years, so ill keep you healthy. youre very silly and remind me of when i chose not to swim in a pond just so i could keep a conversation going with you, youre awesome.

jaybeco youre rising up from your grave slowly, and you keep it up. please dont fall again ‼️‼️ so, you slowly starting to get online again, i want you to come back to is completely even though you are the one who made me scared of abandonment.

dad. no explanation, just my dad.