poetry reveal!!1!

i've had some writers block lately so i wanted to share a shitty poem from ages ago (when i was in a toxic relationship <4) if you hate it don't tell me or i'll haunt you forever

tw for symbolic gore/violence (a theme in like all of my writings lolz)

vivisection 

i’m so, so sick

for as long as i can remember, i've hurt

and it really fascinates you, doesn’t it?

the way i never flinch under your blade

it’s intoxicating.

you can’t get enough of me,

or the rot inside my bones,

or the way that i sit there and take it every time.

and i know

i shouldn't allow this from you, 

i’m still so, so sick

sick to my stomach

sick of living

sick of biting my tongue until it bleeds 

but it's all so intimate, isn't it? 

so i surrender myself to you,

time and time again.

i let you take me apart 

i let you pop my lungs like balloons 

i let you scrape the lining from my stomach 

and watch the acid eat me alive

i don’t think i’ve ever felt so loved