my connections to my queer, disability, objectum & posic identities

so in the time ive been gone/first joined, i figured out that i fall under objectum and posic identities. looking back now, with this newfound knowledge, it seems so obvious. but yeah, thats my lil update that is actually a big thing to me. ill link some sources/info below too about objectum & posic, if anyone is genuinely curious about what i'm talking about! 

my objectum attraction/feelings are not only sexual, only romantic or even only platonic! its actually *drumroll* all three! isnt that just wonderful? i think it is, i love having all these feelings stored inside of me, makes me feel whole personally.

i can & will feel these such things towards the objects in my life: romantic attraction, platonic attraction, familial feelings & even feelings of being adversaries/enemies! since i perceive the objects in my life with consciousness, souls & personalities too, that obviously plays a huge part (for me).

maybe one day ill go further into my current relationships with specific objects. that'll definitely not be right now though, as im still trying to learn as much as possible about what ive found out. also i might still hold embarrassment- it happens. 

realizing this has freed me in such a spectacular way, and opened my mind too! i love learning about these things and i love discovering things about myself that i was previously completely unaware of before. knowledge and learning is cool and i recommend it (/lh /hj). 

i do want to add here that my objectum & posic identities overlap with each other constantly. there's not one without the other for me, personally. its actually part of the reason why i wanted to add some links (below) explaining them as separate identities too. some are only under the objectum umbrella, not posic one- and vice versa! still, please keep this in mind while absorbing this blog post! 

unfortunately i've seen, in just the small amount of research i have done so far, that ppl will think im an even bigger 'freak' now. not only am i bisexual, polyamorous & genderfluid+multigender- now i have two other identities that i see myself in a lot. that others think is a sign of me trying to do harm to others, which is ...worrying? for obvious reasons? the trolls saying this are just that- trolls, but the shit theyre saying and spreading is so insidious i cannot just 'ignore it & move on' sadly. its hatred, whether they 'mean it or not' and i will speak on it always. 

normally i generously accept and even find pride in labels such as freak, weird, cringe & now most recently- queer! but it'll never wash this... taste out of my mouth. that me reclaiming words used against me wont make those who are bigoted towards me & others stop doing so. it sucks, i wish ppl would willingly unlearn their ignorances and subconscious / conscious bigotry & hate more frequently. its not like it never happens, but the amount of ppl who purposely choose to stay in the dark about learning with these topics & choose to hurt others by doing so are growing around me.

my queer identities are just as important to me as my neurodivergent ones & my physical disabilities too. intersectionality is very important and so many crossroads run through me. (a few probably run through you too, viewer!) dealing with being autistic, dyslexic, having chronic pain, long covid, trauma & asthma as well as falling under the identities listed before this is certainly... something. its as alienating as it is freeing, communal and radical. (radical in the good way by the way, not the way some have turned that word into.)

above i haven't even mentioned other factors that play a big part of my collective identity, and as well as hatred. i am fat & i am a mexican (mixed poc). ive been targeted for those two things for most of my life that i can remember. by members of my own "family" no less. 

this isnt me only saying "woe is me" either. i think i love myself a lot, especially i lot more than i used to and these parts that make me- me, arent only spoken about in a negative light. yknow, for the ones that this applies to ofc. like... long covid hasnt helped me, but you get the point hopefully. i just prefer to point things out & speak up rather than remain silent, it kills a bit of my soul when i force myself to be quiet. 

this also isnt me saying i "have it the worst", cuz woo... that'd be so wrong too. even with everything i listed here- i still hold certain privileges others arent afforded (unfairly might i add). antiblackness, colorism, zionism, anti-indigenous/landback, antisemitism and other similar bigotry are huge fucking issues that get pushed under the rug way too often in discussions about intersectionality. i see you all, and just because i don't/can't personally identify with your struggle does not mean ill ever stop supporting you all. you deserve to be actively included in these convos just as much as the rest. its a disservice to not do so.

i dont want to end this on a bad note. so if you're seeing this, and you see yourself in my words, rest assured i see you too. i love you homosexuals, bisexuals & transsexuals! i love you people of color! i love you muslim & jewish people! i love you queer folk & polyamorous folk! i love you aspec & mpsec ppl! i love you objectum & posic ppl of all forms! i see you lgbtmogai ppl of all around the world, of every background! and i love you, i love you, i love you so much! we deserve to live, survive & thrive. we deserve to be here, and exist, just as much as anyone else! 

cool links:

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Object_sexuality

https://www.lgbtqia.wiki/wiki/Objectum

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/35536491/

https://posic.carrd.co/

https://posicterms.carrd.co/

https://posic-info.tumblr.com/

https://www.reddit.com/r/objectum_sfw/

(more links tba when i come across them)

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with love,

monty g. ⭐🍻🌐🍔🌈