8/9/23 first day

Today is the first day of my mom staying here. I´ve been feeling really tired this week bc of school but thanks to god it´s already done.

this morning I made her some breakfast and she ate it all, that´s good bc yesterday when she just came she puked her lunch and I was pretty worried about it... even tho I could have done breakfast for myself, i didn´t because I felt really tired.

after that, I made the lunch, I feel really bad now but I don´t know everything that she can or can´t eat, so I made what she told me... some fried chicken with sweet and sour sauce... to be fair, it wasn´t deep fried, I just seasoned it and trow it in the oil for a couple of minutes. The sweet and sour sauce didn´t go as planned... I didn´t wanted to give her something with that much conservatives (because usually I do it with ketchup) so I tried to make it by myself... it didn´t look like I expected, it look more like a soup than homemade ketchup but when I tried it it tasted AMAZING!!!! (i think i´ll make a blog specifically about recipes so i can remember what I can do and how)

after a couple hours in the kitchen I finished it and it was time for my mom to try it... I was even more tired than before, every single part of my body hurt and I just wanted to let my whole body fall on the floor but when I saw her face of joy and heard her voice with happuness in it saying how good it was I knew everything was worth it, she couldn´t finish her food but she was so happy that she wanted her dinner with that tomato sauce too.

After lunch she took one of her medicines and took a nap (she´s always taking naps, that´s one of the side efects of the chemotherapy and radiotherapy on her) then she ate the dinner, took one of her pain medicines and slept again.

its 12:50 a.m rn and I really feel so tired, I really want to go to bed but I was so exited about this journal that I iknew I had to start today, my mom is sleeping besides me (we all sleep and live in the same room, it´s something difficult to explain so i´ll do it later) and it really makes me so happy having her with me. I know its going to be hard, really hard, I wasn´t prepared for this at all, but I know we´ll be able to go through this all together.