nah man i cant do this anymore(small vent ig?)

not my dad not acting like my dad

all he does is just lay on the couch all day, not doing anything.

i get that he's dealing with his own stuff, but i cant help but feel just a little angry at him for not even trying to be my dad. he was there for my sister, why cant he be there for me? 

like- what does my sister do thats correct that she gets praised by my parents? i know shes a lot smarter than me, and does things better than me but can i please just get told im doing good? they always just point out my flaws and it makes me wanna die.

cant fucking deal with it anymore 

theres like 5 adderall pills next to me

i want to take them so badly