Loneliness

Ever since I have entered my new school, life has been treating me like trash. I try to make new friends but after 2 days later, I accidentally screw everything up and now they are my ex friend.. I have made my relationship with this other old friend stronger but they don't feel like the same as the others. I don't care about anything, I just want to have one more friend. Please. I feel so isolated nowadays. Although I text my other friend after school but they don't respond to me anymore. I have a high suspicion that she talks to my ex friend and gossips about me behind my back but I am too afraid to confront her about it. I want to make new friends. I can't wait any longer. It's starting to get bad. My friend group abandoned me and my grades are starting to drop. People hate me for no reason. I keep thinking about harming others but I know I will never do it. It's wrong and I know it.

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I am starting to hate myself. I am starting to think everyone hates me. I am starting to think I am talentless. I am starting to think that I am useless. I am thinking that I am nothing.