rotting with ambivalence

i look at you and forget that all i know is fading

my sense of couth lost, as im found desperately trying to reach it

all im bound to find is despair.

but you know that right?

youll tear me down to shame night by night

my heart is not for the taking

though this bruise feels all too loving

and so do my words

another crack left on my lips

i beg for you to think about me just once

to think about me in the sense of family

we both know youll never get there.

instead ill look for whats left of you

i see you in the swans, their beauty suddenly ruined

i sit and watch as they deceive their admirers

ill never blame them.

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i dont really know how 2 set up poetry i juz write it XD tell me your thoughtz tho !!