For The Longest Time, I Have Lied to Myself.

It took me a while to accept being a girl of blues. It's within my soul and there's no point of denying it. It fits my skin, it fits my emotions. Even when I am happy I will always have the slight hue of sadness existing inside me. It will always be there, sometimes I will be able to control it but sometimes surpressing won't work anymore and I will overflow. I feel, I was born to feel. I was born to feel to the fullest and express myself. I was also born to over-rationalize, I was born to contradict. Contrast and conflict exist within me. I will always be confused, I will always know and I will always think. I will always remember forever while I also forget a second after. I will always be aware but I will always ignore. I will always remain calm and I will always scream and cry. Maybe it's just better to accept the balance of inbalance and move on.