Love Poems 1; Mar (WIP)

Hi! this is a working in progress project where i'm going to be writing some stuff. I don't want to mention names of my exes (some of my friends are a lil' crazy) so most are under initials or alt names. gtg but will work on this later

I was in love then

I was vulnerable then

Now I am alone

With fear in my eyes

And scared of all love there is

I thought I could trust

But all love was built off lust

I am not the same as my outside

We are two beings apart.

She is my lighter half

She is my love without end

My peace without war

My protest without violence

I am the darker girl

I am the hatred forever

The chaos without harmony

The gore without light

I let love pore into my soul

Tipping into an empty cup

A life

A void

My life is a void

And I am a lie

My empty eyes now

Unable to cry

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I want to smoke until I can't breathe 

I want to lose my breath

Would you lose it with me?

I want to touch you

And feel provoked

I want to breathe in all your smoke 

Until the air won't air won't enter my lungs anymore

I want to see the stars with my eyes

I want to jump off a bridge 

Because you don’t know I can’t fly

And if I can't is that really a bad thing after all

Either way I won't come back 

I don’t think I could survive the fall

All your words are toxic smoke

I drown it out with a sea of tears

Down the water, I start to choke

Not anymore

I can’t cry

And more importantly 

If I could cry 

Maybe I 

Wouldn't want to fucking die

I want to fill my lungs with smoke

Lose all my breath 

Lose myself

Let myself choke

To lose it all today 

I would cry and I would plea

I don't want to be held back 

I want to make you feel me

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(this one is still a work in progress so i might edit or add more soon)

A hollowed out soul

In my chest, it’s a hole

I’m left without a heart

My body is tore apart

The world can crumble

Leave me broke with it

The useless pleas and cries

It’s useless to even try

I want to try to breathe

Now my lungs start to bleed

With darkness they seep

It leaves my eyes without tears

And my mind without sleep

Taken and given

Love, life, and the pain of forgiving

The pain of life

It’s not something worth living

With my happiness, away you whisk

She took away my life

With a singular kiss