Diary entry #3: Being Transmasc and Latino

12/06/2023

I'm gonna write diary entry for most of my blog posts from now on cuz no one reads these anyways and I don't have the heart to use physical notebooks for other than art purposes. I gotta over somewhere cuz I only see my therapist every 2 weeks and whatever lord up there knows I hardly say a thing in real life.

I came out to my mom about a week ago and it went pretty good, she's been receptive to what I want to do to transition (Top surgery and hormones, maybe bottom surgery later down the line, the usual) but was frank in her feelings about it such as...

"You better make the effort in keeping your hair, I don't want a bald son until you're 50" (when I told her that taking T could risk the production of DHT from Testosterone which could speed up hair loss. There are options and treatments to keep and grow hair I checked (obvi))

"Will it be expensive?" (Cuz it's medical but insurance is a bitch. It really depends state to state and how the hormones are administered (shot, patch, gel)

"Really?? We're not Italian." (I told her my chosen name in school was Marcel but that's rich coming from her since the name she gave me turned out to be FRENCH (bleh) but also I've been thinking of going by Marcelo like the author of Los Deshabitados or Marcelino like the starring actor in Sangre de Condor.)

"If you decide to not keep your nipples, please don't tell me, I don't wanna know" (I told her it was optional and some don't keep them to speed up the healing process)

I haven't acknowledged my identity with my dad or my siblings but I have no idea what my dad thinks of trans people and I don't really think I need to explain myself to my siblings cuz it was pretty obvious. I just hope I don't start balding until at least 45 like my dad, ideally at 60.